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'Three centuries and threescore years ago,
With phantasies of his peculiar thought.

You might as well try to rewrite Hamlet. It will be a waste of time.

'No, it won't,' said Maisie, putting down the teacups with a clatter
to
reassure herself. 'And I mean to do it. Can't you see what a
beautiful
thing it would make?'

'How in perdition can one do work when one hasn't had the proper
training? Any fool can get a notion. It needs training to drive the
thing
through,--training and conviction; not rushing after the first fancy.'
Dick
spoke between his teeth.

'You don't understand,' said Maisie. 'I think I can do it.'

Again the voice of the girl behind him--

'Baffled and beaten back, she works on still;
Weary and sick of soul, she works the more.

Sustained by her indomitable will,
The hands shall fashion, and the brain shall pore,
And all her sorrow shall be turned to labour----

I fancy Maisie means to embody herself in the picture.'

'Sitting on a throne of rejected pictures? No, I shan't, dear. The
notion in
itself has fascinated me.--Of course you don't care for fancy heads,
Dick.

I don't think you could do them. You like blood and bones.'

'That's a direct challenge. If you can do a Melancolia that isn't
merely a
sorrowful female head, I can do a better one; and I will, too. What
d'you
know about Melacolias?' Dick firmly believed that he was even
then
tasting three-quarters of all the sorrow in the world.

'She was a woman,' said Maisie, 'and she suffered a great deal,--till
she
could suffer no more. Then she began to laugh at it all, and then I
painted
her and sent her to the Salon.'

The red-haired girl rose up and left the room, laughing.

Dick looked at Maisie humbly and hopelessly.

'Never mind about the picture,' he said. 'Are you really going back
to
Kami's for a month before your time?'

'I must, if I want to get the picture done.'

'And that's all you want?'

'Of course. Don't be stupid, Dick.'

'You haven't the power. You have only the ideas--the ideas and the
little
cheap impulses. How you could have kept at your work for ten
years
steadily is a mystery to me. So you are really going,--a month
before you
need?'

'I must do my work.'

'Your work--bah! . . . No, I didn't mean that. It's all right, dear. Of
course you must do your work, and--I think I'll say good-bye for
this
week.'

'Won't you even stay for tea?
'No, thank you. Have I your leave to go, dear? There's nothing
more you
particularly want me to do, and the line-work doesn't matter.'

'I wish you could stay, and then we could talk over my picture. If
only
one single picture's a success, it draws attention to all the others. I
know
some of my work is good, if only people could see. And you
needn't have
been so rude about it.'

'I'm sorry. We'll talk the Melancolia over some one of the other
Sundays.

There are four more--yes, one, two, three, four--before you go.
Good-bye,
Maisie.'

Maisie stood by the studio window, thinking, till the red-haired
girl
returned, a little white at the corners of her lips.

'Dick's gone off,' said Maisie. 'Just when I wanted to talk about the
picture. Isn't it selfish of him?'

Her companion opened her lips as if to speak, shut them again, and
went
on reading The City of Dreadful Night-

Dick was in the Park, walking round and round a tree that he had
chosen
as his confidante for many Sundays past. He was swearing audibly,
and
when he found that the infirmities of the English tongue hemmed
in his
rage, he sought consolation in Arabic, which is expressly designed
for the
use of the afflicted. He was not pleased with the reward of his
patient
service; nor was he pleased with himself; and it was long before he
arrived at the proposition that the queen could do no wrong.

'It's a losing game,' he said. 'I'm worth nothing when a whim of
hers is in
question. But in a losing game at Port Said we used to double the
stakes
and go on. She do a Melancolia! She hasn't the power, or the
insight, or
the training. Only the desire. She's cursed with the curse of
Reuben. She
won't do line-work, because it means real work; and yet she's
stronger
than I am. I'll make her understand that I can beat her on her own
Melancolia. Even then she wouldn't care. She says I can only do
blood
and bones. I don't believe she has blood in her veins. All the same I
lover
her; and I must go on loving her; and if I can humble her
inordinate
vanity I will. I'll do a Melancolia that shall be something like a
Melancolia--"the Melancolia that transcends all wit." I'll do it at
once,
con--bless her.'

He discovered that the notion would not come to order, and that he
could
not free his mind for an hour from the thought of Maisie's
departure. He
took very small interest in her rough studies for the Melancolia
when she
showed them next week. The Sundays were racing past, and the
time was
at hand when all the church bells in London could not ring Maisie
back
to him. Once or twice he said something to Binkie about
'hermaphroditic
futilities,' but the little dog received so many confidences both
from
Torpenhow and Dick that he did not trouble his tulip-ears to listen.

Dick was permitted to see the girls off. They were going by the
Dover
night-boat; and they hoped to return in August. It was then
February,
and Dick felt that he was being hardly used. Maisie was so busy
stripping
the small house across the Park, and packing her canvases, that she
had
not time for thought. Dick went down to Dover and wasted a day
there
fretting over a wonderful possibility. Would Maisie at the very last
allow
him one small kiss? He reflected that he might capture her by the
strong
arm, as he had seem women captured in the Southern Soudan, and
lead
her away; but Maisie would never be led. She would turn her gray
eyes
upon him and say, 'Dick, how selfish you are!' Then his courage
would
fail him. It would be better, after all, to beg for that kiss.

Maisie looked more than usually kissable as she stepped from the
night-mail on to the windy pier, in a gray waterproof and a little
gray
cloth travelling-cap. The red-haired girl was not so lovely. Her
green
eyes were hollow and her lips were dry. Dick saw the trunks
aboard, and
went to Maisie's side in the darkness under the bridge. The
mail-bags
were thundering into the forehold, and the red-haired girl was
watching
them.

'You'll have a rough passage to-night,' said Dick. 'It's blowing
outside. I
suppose I may come over and see you if I'm good?'

'You mustn't. I shall be busy. At least, if I want you I'll send for
you. But
I shall write from Vitry-sur-Marne. I shall have heaps of things to
consult you about. Oh, Dick, you have been so good to me!--so
good to
me!'

'Thank you for that, dear. It hasn't made any difference, has it?'

'I can't tell a fib. It hasn't--in that way. But don't think I'm not
grateful.'

'Damn the gratitude!' said Dick, huskily, to the paddle-box.

'What's the use of worrying? You know I should ruin your life, and
you'd ruin mine, as things are now. You remember what you said
when
you were so angry that day in the Park? One of us has to be broken.

Can't you wait till that day comes?'

'No, love. I want you unbroken--all to myself.'

Maisie shook her head. 'My poor Dick, what can I say!'

'Don't say anything. Give me a kiss. Only one kiss, Maisie. I'll
swear I
won't take any more. You might as well, and then I can be sure
you're
grateful.'

Maisie put her cheek forward, and Dick took his reward in the
darkness.

It was only one kiss, but, since there was no time-limit specified, it
was a
long one. Maisie wrenched herself free angrily, and Dick stood
abashed
and tingling from head to toe.

'Good-bye, darling. I didn't mean to scare you. I'm sorry.
Only--keep
well and do good work,--specially the Melancolia. I'm going to do
one,
too. Remember me to Kami, and be careful what you drink.
Country
drinking-water is bad everywhere, but it's worse in France. Write
to me
if you want anything, and good-bye. Say good-bye to the
whatever-you-call-um girl, and--can't I have another kiss? No.
You're
quite right. Good-bye.'

A should told him that it was not seemly to charge of the mail-bag
incline. He reached the pier as the steamer began to move off, and
he
followed her with his heart.

'And there's nothing--nothing in the wide world--to keep us apart
except
her obstinacy. These Calais night-boats are much too small. I'll get
Torp
to write to the papers about it. She's beginning to pitch already.'

Maisie stood where Dick had left her till she heard a little gasping
cough
at her elbow. The red-haired girl's eyes were alight with cold
flame.

'He kissed you!' she said. 'How could you let him, when he wasn't
anything to you? How dared you to take a kiss from him? Oh,
Maisie,
let's go to the ladies' cabin. I'm sick,--deadly sick.'

'We aren't into open water yet. Go down, dear, and I'll stay here. I
don't
like the smell of the engines. . . . Poor Dick! He deserved
one,--only one.

But I didn't think he'd frighten me so.'

Dick returned to town next day just in time for lunch, for which he
had
telegraphed. To his disgust, there were only empty plates in the
studio.

He lifted up his voice like the bears in the fairy-tale, and
Torpenhow
entered, looking guilty.

'H'sh!' said he. 'Don't make such a noise. I took it. Come into my
rooms,
and I'll show you why.'

Dick paused amazed at the threshold, for on Torpenhow's sofa lay
a girl
asleep and breathing heavily. The little cheap sailor-hat, the
blue-and-white dress, fitter for June than for February, dabbled
with
mud at the skirts, the jacket trimmed with imitation Astrakhan and
ripped at the shoulder-seams, the one-and-elevenpenny umbrella,
and,
above all, the disgraceful condition of the kid-topped boots,
declared all
things.

'Oh, I say, old man, this is too bad! You mustn't bring this sort up
here.

They steal things from the rooms.'

'It looks bad, I admit, but I was coming in after lunch, and she
staggered
into the hall. I thought she was drunk at first, but it was collapse. I
couldn't leave her as she was, so I brought her up here and gave her
your
lunch. She was fainting from want of food. She went fast asleep
the
minute she had finished.'

'I know something of that complaint. She's been living on sausages,
I
suppose. Torp, you should have handed her over to a policeman
for
presuming to faint in a respectable house. Poor little wretch! Look
at the
face! There isn't an ounce of immorality in it. Only folly,--slack,
fatuous,
feeble, futile folly. It's a typical head. D'you notice how the skull
begins
to show through the flesh padding on the face and cheek-bone?'

'What a cold-blooded barbarian it is! Don't hit a woman when she's
down. Can't we do anything? She was simply dropping with
starvation.

She almost fell into my arms, and when she got to the food she ate
like a
wild beast. It was horrible.'

'I can give her money, which she would probably spend in drinks.
Is she
going to sleep for ever?'

The girl opened her eyes and glared at the men between terror and
effrontery.

'Feeling better?' said Torpenhow.

'Yes. Thank you. There aren't many gentlemen that are as kind as
you
are. Thank you.'

'When did you leave service?' said Dick, who had been watching
the
scarred and chapped hands.

'How did you know I was in service? I was. General servant. I
didn't like
it.'

'And how do you like being your own mistress?'

'Do I look as if I liked it?'

'I suppose not. One moment. Would you be good enough to turn
your
face to the window?'

The girl obeyed, and Dick watched her face keenly,--so keenly that
she
made as if to hide behind Torpenhow.

'The eyes have it,' said Dick, walking up and down. 'They are
superb
eyes for my business. And, after all, every head depends on the
eyes. This
has been sent from heaven to make up for--what was taken away.
Now
the weekly strain's off my shoulders, I can get to work in earnest.

Evidently sent from heaven. Yes. Raise your chin a little, please.'

'Gently, old man, gently. You're scaring somebody out of her wits,'
said
Torpenhow, who could see the girl trembling.

'Don't let him hit me! Oh, please don't let him hit me! I've been hit
cruel
to-day because I spoke to a man. Don't let him look at me like that!
He's
reg'lar wicked, that one. Don't let him look at me like that, neither!
Oh, I
feel as if I hadn't nothing on when he looks at me like that!'

The overstrained nerves in the frail body gave way, and the girl
wept like
a little child and began to scream. Dick threw open the window,
and
Torpenhow flung the door back.

'There you are,' said Dick, soothingly. 'My friend here can call for a
policeman, and you can run through that door. Nobody is going to
hurt
you.'

The girl sobbed convulsively for a few minutes, and then tried to
laugh.

'Nothing in the world to hurt you. Now listen to me for a minute.
I'm
what they call an artist by profession. You know what artists do?'

'They draw the things in red and black ink on the pop-shop labels.'

'I dare say. I haven't risen to pop-shop labels yet. Those are done by
the
Academicians. I want to draw your head.'

'What for?'

'Because it's pretty. That is why you will come to the room across
the
landing three times a week at eleven in the morning, and I'll give
you
three quid a week just for sitting still and being drawn. And there's
a
quid on account.'

'For nothing? Oh, my!' The girl turned the sovereign in her hand,
and
with more foolish tears, 'Ain't neither o' you two gentlemen afraid
of my
bilking you?'

'No. Only ugly girls do that. Try and remember this place. And, by
the
way, what's your name?'

'I'm Bessic,--Bessie---- It's no use giving the rest. Bessie
Broke,--Stone-broke, if you like. What's your names? But
there,--no one
ever gives the real ones.'

Dick consulted Torpenhow with his eyes.

'My name's Heldar, and my friend's called Torpenhow; and you
must be
sure to come here. Where do you live?'

'South-the-water,--one room,--five and sixpence a week. Aren't you
making fun of me about that three quid?'

'You'll see later on. And, Bessie, next time you come, remember,
you
needn't wear that paint. It's bad for the skin, and I have all the
colours
you'll be likely to need.'

Bessie withdrew, scrubbing her cheek with a ragged
pocket-handkerchief. The two men looked at each other.

'You're a man,' said Torpenhow.

'I'm afraid I've been a fool. It isn't our business to run about the
earth
reforming Bessie Brokes. And a woman of any kind has no right
on this
landing.'

'Perhaps she won't come back.'

'She will if she thinks she can get food and warmth here. I know
she will,
worse luck. But remember, old man, she isn't a woman; she's my
model;
and be careful.'

'The idea! She's a dissolute little scarecrow,--a gutter-snippet and
nothing more.'

'So you think. Wait till she has been fed a little and freed from
fear. That
fair type recovers itself very quickly. You won't know her in a
week or
two, when that abject fear has died out of her eyes. She'll be too
happy
and smiling for my purposes.'

'But surely you're not taking her out of charity?--to please me?'

'I am not in the habit of playing with hot coals to please anybody.
She has
been sent from heaven, as I may have remarked before, to help me
with
my Melancolia.'

'Never heard a word about the lady before.'

'What's the use of having a friend, if you must sling your notions at
him
in words? You ought to know what I'm thinking about. You've
heard me
grunt lately?'

'Even so; but grunts mean anything in your language, from bad
'baccy to
wicked dealers. And I don't think I've been much in your
confidence for
some time.'

'It was a high and soulful grunt. You ought to have understood that
it
meant the Melancolia.' Dick walked Torpenhow up and down the
room,
keeping silence. Then he smote him in the ribs, 'Now don't you see
it?
Bessie's abject futility, and the terror in her eyes, welded on to one
or
two details in the way of sorrow that have come under my
experience
lately. Likewise some orange and black,--two keys of each. But I
can't
explain on an empty stomach.'

'It sounds mad enough. You'd better stick to your soldiers, Dick,
instead
of maundering about heads and eyes and experiences.'

'Think so?' Dick began to dance on his heels, singing--

'They're as proud as a turkey when they hold the ready cash,
You ought to 'ear the way they laugh an' joke;
They are tricky an' they're funny when they've got the ready
money,--
Ow! but see 'em when they're all stone-broke.'

Then he sat down to pour out his heart to Maisie in a four-sheet
letter of
counsel and encouragement, and registered an oath that he would
get to
work with an undivided heart as soon as Bessie should reappear.

The girl kept her appointment unpainted and unadorned, afraid and
overbold by turns. When she found that she was merely expected
to sit
still, she grew calmer, and criticised the appointments of the studio
with
freedom and some point. She liked the warmth and the comfort
and the
release from fear of physical pain. Dick made two or three studies
of her
head in monochrome, but the actual notion of the Melancolia
would not
arrive.

'What a mess you keep your things in!' said Bessie, some days
later, when
she felt herself thoroughly at home. 'I s'pose your clothes are just
as bad.

Gentlemen never think what buttons and tape are made for.'

'I buy things to wear, and wear 'em till they go to pieces. I don't
know
what Torpenhow does.'

Bessie made diligent inquiry in the latter's room, and unearthed a
bale of
disreputable socks. 'Some of these I'll mend now,' she said, 'and
some I'll
take home. D'you know, I sit all day long at home doing nothing,
just like
a lady, and no more noticing them other girls in the house than if
they
was so many flies. I don't have any unnecessary words, but I put
'em
down quick, I can tell you, when they talk to me. No; it's quite nice
these
days. I lock my door, and they can only call me names through the
keyhole, and I sit inside, just like a lady, mending socks. Mr.
Torpenhow
wears his socks out both ends at once.'

'Three quid a week from me, and the delights of my society. No
socks
mended. Nothing from Torp except a nod on the landing now and
again,
and all his socks mended. Bessie is very much a woman,' thought
Dick;
and he looked at her between half-shut eyes. Food and rest had
transformed the girl, as Dick knew they would.

'What are you looking at me like that for?' she said quickly. 'Don't.
You
look reg'lar bad when you look that way. You don't think much o'
me, do
you?'

'That depends on how you behave.'

Bessie behaved beautifully. Only it was difficult at the end of a
sitting to
bid her go out into the gray streets. She very much preferred the
studio
and a big chair by the stove, with some socks in her lap as an
excuse for
delay. Then Torpenhow would come in, and Bessie would be
moved to
tell strange and wonderful stories of her past, and still stranger
ones of
her present improved circumstances. She would make them tea as
though
she had a right to make it; and once or twice on these occasions
Dick
caught Torpenhow's eyes fixed on the trim little figure, and
because
Bessie'' flittings about the room made Dick ardently long for
Maisie, he
realised whither Torpenhow's thoughts were tending. And Bessie
was
exceedingly careful of the condition of Torpenhow's linen. She
spoke
very little to him, but sometimes they talked together on the
landing.

'I was a great fool,' Dick said to himself. 'I know what red firelight
looks
like when a man's tramping through a strange town; and ours is a
lonely,
selfish sort of life at the best. I wonder Maisie doesn't feel that
sometimes. But I can't order Bessie away. That's the worst of
beginning
things. One never knows where they stop.'

One evening, after a sitting prolonged to the last limit of the light,
Dick
was roused from a nap by a broken voice in Torpenhow's room. He
jumped to his feet. 'Now what ought I to do? It looks foolish to go
in.--Oh,
bless you, Binkie!' The little terrier thrust Torpenhow's door open
with
his nose and came out to take possession of Dick's chair. The door
swung
wide unheeded, and Dick across the landing could see Bessie in
the
half-light making her little supplication to Torpenhow. She was
kneeling
by his side, and her hands were clasped across his knee.

'I know,--I know,' she said thickly. ''Tisn't right o' me to do this, but
I
can't help it; and you were so kind,--so kind; and you never took
any
notice o' me. And I've mended all your things so carefully,--I did.
Oh,
please, 'tisn't as if I was asking you to marry me. I wouldn't think of
it.

But you--couldn't you take and live with me till Miss Right comes
along?
I'm only Miss Wrong, I know, but I'd work my hands to the bare
bone
for you. And I'm not ugly to look at. Say you will!'

Dick hardly recognised Torpenhow's voice in reply--
'But look here. It's no use. I'm liable to be ordered off anywhere at
a
minute's notice if a war breaks out. At a minute's notice--dear.'

'What does that matter? Until you go, then. Until you go. 'Tisn't
much
I'm asking, and--you don't know how good I can cook.' She had put
an
arm round his neck and was drawing his head down.

'Until--I--go, then.'

'Torp,' said Dick, across the landing. He could hardly steady his
voice.

'Come here a minute, old man. I'm in trouble'--'Heaven send he'll
listen
to me!' There was something very like an oath from Bessie's lips.
She was
afraid of Dick, and disappeared down the staircase in panic, but it
seemed an age before Torpenhow entered the studio. He went to
the
mantelpiece, buried his head on his arms, and groaned like a
wounded
bull.

'What the devil right have you to interfere?' he said, at last.

'Who's interfering with which? Your own sense told you long ago
you
couldn't be such a fool. It was a tough rack, St. Anthony, but you're
all
right now.'

'I oughtn't to have seen her moving about these rooms as if they
belonged
to her. That's what upset me. It gives a lonely man a sort of
hankering,
doesn't it?' said Torpenhow, piteously.

'Now you talk sense. It does. But, since you aren't in a condition to
discuss the disadvantages of double housekeeping, do you know
what
you're going to do?'

'I don't. I wish I did.'

'You're going away for a season on a brilliant tour to regain tone.
You're
going to Brighton, or Scarborough, or Prawle Point, to see the
ships go
by. And you're going at once. Isn't it odd? I'll take care of Binkie,
but out
you go immediately. Never resist the devil. He holds the bank. Fly
from
him. Pack your things and go.'

'I believe you're right. Where shall I go?'

'And you call yourself a special correspondent! Pack first and
inquire
afterwards.'

An hour later Torpenhow was despatched into the night for a
hansom.

'You'll probably think of some place to go to while you're moving,'
said
Dick. 'On to Euston, to begin with, and--oh yes--get drunk
to-night.'

He returned to the studio, and lighted more candles, for he found
the
room very dark.

'Oh, you Jezebel! you futile little Jezebel! Won't you hate me
to-morrow!--Binkie, come here.'

Binkie turned over on his back on the hearth-rug, and Dick stirred
him
with a meditative foot.

'I said she was not immoral. I was wrong. She said she could cook.
That
showed premeditated sin. Oh, Binkie, if you are a man you will go
to
perdition; but if you are a woman, and say that you can cook, you
will go
to a much worse place.'

CHAPTER X

What's you that follows at my side?--
The foe that ye must fight, my lord.--
That hirples swift as I can ride?--
The shadow of the night, my lord.--
Then wheel my horse against the foe!--
He's down and overpast, my lord.

Ye war against the sunset glow;
The darkness gathers fast, my lord.
-- The Fight of Heriot's Ford-

'THIS is a cheerful life,' said Dick, some days later. 'Torp's away;
Bessie
hates me; I can't get at the notion of the Melancolia; Maisie's
letters are
scrappy; and I believe I have indigestion. What give a man pains
across
the head and spots before his eyes, Binkie? Shall us take some
liver pills?'

Dick had just gone through a lively scene with Bessie. She had for
the
fiftieth time reproached him for sending Torpenhow away. She
explained
her enduring hatred for Dick, and made it clear to him that she
only sat
for the sake of his money. 'And Mr. Torpenhow's ten times a better
man
than you,' she concluded.

'He is. That's why he went away. I should have stayed and made
love to
you.'

The girl sat with her chin on her hand, scowling. 'To me! I'd like to
catch
you! If I wasn't afraid o' being hung I'd kill you. That's what I'd do.

D'you believe me?'

Dick smiled wearily. It is not pleasant to live in the company of a
notion
that will not work out, a fox-terrier that cannot talk, and a woman
who
talks too much. He would have answered, but at that moment there
unrolled itself from one corner of the studio a veil, as it were, of
the
flimsiest gauze. He rubbed his eyes, but the gray haze would not
go.

'This is disgraceful indigestion. Binkie, we will go to a
medicine-man. We
can't have our eyes interfered with, for by these we get our bread;
also
mutton-chop bones for little dogs.'

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